You are not a loser for not understanding yourself.
You have to learn to stop being so critical of yourself. 99% of the negative things your head tells you will be complete lies (and the reason I don't say 100% is because I don't know you well enough). You need to learn the difference between the bullshit the sick part of your head comes up with and reality. I think sometimes it is easier to believe the ill part but you need to keep fighting it.
Try to focus instead on the fact that at any given time 3, or 5 + people care enough to be reading for updates. That should give you some strength. None of this is easy but I truely believe you WILL get through this, if you truely want to.
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