Yeh but..i freak out when i get so many people reading my thread (like now i have 5 people) and i don't know why. It makes me feel like i'm not deserving of support when so many others need it. I struggle anyway to reach out for support unless i'm really really bad..which is why i made this thread. But i just. Fuck. I don't know how to get through any of this, not just tonight, but everything. Why is everything so black? I just see nothing but the material things around me, i can't see a future, i haven't been able to since i was 7 years old. 7 fucking years old. I was a fucking child.
I'm surrounded by people but i feel so alone, like i'm in a bubble and not letting anyone else in because i physically can't. I'm meant to understand myself but i don't.
Loser.
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