Thanks thats very kind.
But in my case my effort is simply too little too late.
i havent wanted to live, i havent been trying to stay afloat for a long time before now.
Not really.
ive almost done everything to the opposite all the time in fact.
And now ive got myself into a situation which it would never be realistic for me to get out of.
And im still not sure i want to anyway even after all that!
im not denying that i/things can get better.....to a certain degree.
im sure they can.
In fact i know they can.
But i dont think it can be enough.
It wont be significant enough to stop my death.
It wont be enough.
i will still die.
And i know that deep down.
Not just cos im feeling bad.
Which leads me to think what am i even doing posting?
There cant be a lot of point in this situation....can there?
Sorry ignore me.im a waste of space.
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