This sounds like a really difficult situation.
And i know that your scared and worried but im really glad your considering telling your doc.
It sounds really important so that they can help you as best as possible and it does sound like there is a lot going on for you/a lot for you to deal with right now.
i can completely understand why you would be worried about things being taken away, being confined to the unit etc.
If this happened they would only be looking out for your best interests though.
i understand why you would worry about this/find the thought of it very hard also though.
But if it would make it any easier do you think you could talk to them about these worries and concerns before you tell them anything - maybe then they can talk things through with you and also re-assure you like that things wont be taken off you except for as a very last resort etc?
Or write everything down?Like how you are feeling, the issues you are struggling with and also your concerns about how things will be dealt with.
They would then have something to read and re-read and could take a little time to think about what to do considering all that you have said including your worries.
Obviously i dont know the unit or the people but i really hope they would only take things away or confine you to the unit if they had extremely serious concerns and/or as a very last resort where you were in immediate danger.
Especially if you are willing to work with them and show them this.
If they can see you are trying to be open and honest and responsible and work with them as much as possible i think they are more likely to feel able to negotiate on these things to a certain degree.
Remember they are there to work with you and not against you and though its really scary its important they know what is going on.
If you cant communicate verbally maybe write it if that helps.i find it does but i know it doesnt work for everyone.
i think your very brave and it sounds like you have fought through so much already.Remember recovery is never a straight forward path but you are still getting there.
i hope that you and the staff can work together to keep you safe.
Take care and keep posting.
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