Well firstly, it's not unreasonable for you to be feeling a massive mix of emotions right now - anger, disgust, betryal, etc - at what this lady did. I think the whole general community would be outraged (I know I was reading it) but then, you knew her and followed the story so you have every right to feel those emotions and it's difficult, but it shows a great compassion in you. Hell, I'm glad they caught her.
Coupled with the panic and anxiety you faced earlier with the suicide scare. If you don't want to cause that sort of anxiety though, don't you think the feelnigs would be worse after the act? The same way you're wondering if you should have said something about Dakota (you weren't to know, by the way, what was going no at all) would be what we'd be left wondering, forever.
Sorry. Small inclining of emotion running through there. But after such horrednous, emotionally draining times the best thing you can do is be super gentle with yourself. Cuddle teddy, lie down, put on some nice music etc.. small things you enjoy as I think I mentioned before to try and soothe yourself.
I am thinking of you, and hoping you get some rest and ease from all this soon.
xxxx
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