*huggles* That sounds very bad of your friend to do. I am working on the assumption that she knows you have agoraphobia?
What I want you to tell yourself, and I know it will be hard to do, but you need to know that this is not your fault. You did all the right things, you made the plan and took it as organised. I know it caused you a lot of stress, and it was very very brave of you to do and to hold to. It is your friend who is at fault. Not you. You are far from vile, you are a fantastic person who has done their best to remain true to a friend that is in no way showing any sign of returning that level of respect or friendship.
Fallen rain has said it much much better than I can... my brain is a bit muddled right now.
*cuddles* feel proud of yourself for deciding to do it, maybe you can take it as a step taken. You did not fail, you still went outside with your bags. You made a plan that you knew would cause stress and inspite of the stress you were determined to stick with it. It is just one person being an idiot that has stopped it from working, and that person was not you.
I am proud of you *cuddles*
Roiben x
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