Hey,
I can relate to parts of what you wrote. It's pretty horrible, isn't it?! It's difficult to know how to control it, sometimes I find I act out on the anger and then suddenly I realise what I've done. I must be ok at controlling it at other times though because the only people I get angry with are my family!
I think it is a good idea to tell who you are around that you are feeling aggressive/angry/agitated and maybe think through what you would find most helpful. Does it help you to be left alone or do you find that more aggravating? Do you need to be distracted/get out the house etc.
Also, do any of the sort of anger management strategies help you? It might be worth researching a few ideas and seeing if any of them work for you.
I guess one thing that is very important is making repairs afterwards. If you've already shouted at somebody then you can't go back in time and change that (not meant in a bad way) so maybe try and show you are sorry by doing something nice for them/apologising etc. I know it doesn't change it but at least it goes some way to let them know you didn't mean it etc.
Good luck.x
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