Sometimes people don't reply because they don't know what the person posting is looking for in their replies. If you are looking for advice, I'd say the only advice that any of us can give is to go talk to a professional about it. None of us can tell you if you had OCD as a child or what is causing your symptoms now because we don't know your full medical history and we aren't experts.
If what you're looking for is sympathy and understanding, that we can give. I do understand having issues in your past which worry you. I used to worry that I was psychotic when I was about 12 because I had some odd beliefs, but at the end of the day, unless my doctor or therapist decide it's something worth exploring, obsessing over it is pointless. It's in the past now. If you think it's related to what you're going through today then by all means bring it up with whoever is treating you, but otherwise, you kinda have to let some of that stuff go.
I've never told a mental health professional about the odd 'beliefs' I once had because I believe that I was trying to escape from reality as a coping strategy and it has no relation to how I am today. I don't believe I was psychotic. So I've let it go.
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