I completely understand being frustrated by your family. I grew up with a brother with a disability so he often got all the attention and it's definitely had an effect on me. I especially know how it feels to feel like the less important child. But your mum and dad aren't doing it on purpose, they're probably not even aware of it.
It sounds like when you calm down you need to talk to your parents about how you feel. Just calmly explain how you feel, and try not to use blaming language like "you always do x and it's not fair!", instead say "when you do x, it makes me feel y." As for your grandparents, well, unfortunately we can't choose our families and sometimes family members can be abusive. In which case, explain it to your mum or dad, and avoid them if necessary. It's important to look after yourself first.
You're probably a lot more loved and cherished than you realise, they probably just want you to have some freedom and independence and they don't realise it's making you upset.
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