[yakerdeets]

so my doctor asked me how my sleep was o..........years ago and some nights i have trouble sleeping, some nights i dont. BUT i am now perscribed and have been for years ambien/zolipem (generic version) and like i said some nights i need it and some nights i dont....

but anymore i just use it to get "high" because if you dont go to sleep on it right away it makes you/me have a trippy like feeling. one thing that i dont feel anymore is pain..... and that is not good, when i take this is usually when i cut.....and since there is less pain there is more blood and explaining to do.

i want to stop taking these pills but i cant stop, i think i am addicted but i dont know how to spot an addiction within myself. i would like to stop hurting myself too but i am addicted to that as well.

on the other hand i sleep like a baby when taking these pills so it does help that aspect. but i usually anymore only take them for the "high" and while on this high i usually dont remember things which is a bad thing as well.....

anyways i dunno what to do.....