[ferretmonster]

Its a long story really but last week i was finally put in touch with the mental health services, i saw a psyc and the CPN and they asked me to refer myself to these services.

So away i go, contact these services who tell me it will be about 6 weeks til i have an appointment with them, ok fair enough, go to my appointment witht eh CPN today and she tells me a. the GP (who had emailed and checked with the consultanT) shouldn't give 'people with my problems' meds and b. apparently thats it, the CPN and psyc team arent going to see me again, im back on my own until these services contact me to do an assessment in 6 weeks to see if im appropriate for them. She's told me i shouldnt have meds to cope with my meltdowns that i should stay at work and try to organise a way to cope because again its best for 'people with my problems' .

I just felt so relieves last week when they finally got me to the MHS but now they have dumped me again, im not sure i can be bothered with it, i feel like just ignoring it all and going back to what i used to be like alone and coping on my own.

I was soo annoyed and fed up that when i got home i took a handful of various pills and have slept ever since, i'd quite like to go back to bed now but i know my man will be home soon, and then i wont sleep tonight (which is an issue at the best of times).

Just, what is the point?

Two 20 minute meetings and these people seem to have labelled me and think they know me, i wish i could be normal