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Steel Maiden · 14-04-2009, 03:15 PM

Ok last night/this morning I f*cked up. I did what They said.

I got myself bleeding into the sink. I must have lost quite a lot of blood. But my parents didn't notice as it was the early hours of the morning and they were asleep. I also drank about 200ml of some spirits, stronger than vodka. Tasted like disinfectant. Then I went a bit potty and couldn't really type or txt properly. I went to sleep at 4am and woke up at 7am. But I don't need much sleep so that's ok. Sleep is too dangerous anyhow. They still do disturbing things to me in my sleep.

I'm physically ok today. I went to the gym for 80 minutes and part of it was spent running 10km on the treadmill. I have to do this because of the Test They keep telling me I will go through. They say that I will have to fight someone for a very long time. So I need stamina, strength and agility. I have been practising my kickboxing as well as going on 80 minute vigorous workouts in the gym every second day.

I'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow. I have prepared her a letter. Its long (I can never be concise as you know, I am very wordy) but it tells everything so I hope that she will understand at least. My psychiatrist didn't really respond to my other letter, well, I don't know because I'm seeing her on the 21st of April.

I feel sick. I just ate this massive hypertrophic pear and I feel really full up and sick.

Thank you so much for all the replies. You guys keep me going.

14-04-2009, 03:15 PM	#19
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	Ok last night/this morning I f*cked up. I did what They said. I got myself bleeding into the sink. I must have lost quite a lot of blood. But my parents didn't notice as it was the early hours of the morning and they were asleep. I also drank about 200ml of some spirits, stronger than vodka. Tasted like disinfectant. Then I went a bit potty and couldn't really type or txt properly. I went to sleep at 4am and woke up at 7am. But I don't need much sleep so that's ok. Sleep is too dangerous anyhow. They still do disturbing things to me in my sleep. I'm physically ok today. I went to the gym for 80 minutes and part of it was spent running 10km on the treadmill. I have to do this because of the Test They keep telling me I will go through. They say that I will have to fight someone for a very long time. So I need stamina, strength and agility. I have been practising my kickboxing as well as going on 80 minute vigorous workouts in the gym every second day. I'm seeing my psychologist tomorrow. I have prepared her a letter. Its long (I can never be concise as you know, I am very wordy) but it tells everything so I hope that she will understand at least. My psychiatrist didn't really respond to my other letter, well, I don't know because I'm seeing her on the 21st of April. I feel sick. I just ate this massive hypertrophic pear and I feel really full up and sick. Thank you so much for all the replies. You guys keep me going.
	PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10 or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student. I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out. I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included. Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.