[silentdancer]

okay, so i finally went to a Dr last week to seek help for my depression...
however after spending quite a long time with her, and answering questions about things i wouldnt have ever have thought relevant enough to bring up on my own.... she thinks i have bipolar disorder

i was then sent to the counselling service as they thought i qualified for an emergency appointment as i was at risk for SIing. he also thought i am likely to have bipolar disorder aswell....they both really wanted me to go to the psychiatrist to get a formal diagnosis

they both seemed to particularly want me to get a formal diagnosis so that they could give me medication which might help, however they were worried about giving me antidepressants incase it triggered mania

im not entirely sure where im going with this, as until friday when i had the appointments, id never considered my good moods a problem. however the more i think about...the more i realise it seems to be when im in a good mood for me to get into strife (i tend to be unable to associate my actions with consequences until much later so i do thinks like spending a months rent on clothes i dont need, drinking much more, experimenting with drugs, and my sex drive goes through the roof. also things like hardly sleeping, because i get really paranoid theres someone watching me sleep)

does this sound like bipolar? the few people i have talked to have seemed relieved that i am getting help, and seem to be of the opinion that i have very intense, obvious mood swings every few weeks/months. though i tend to be in a good mood (manic?) less frequently, and for shorter periods than my depression.

i guess what im really wondering about is what i can expect from the diagnosis process, and also what kinds of medications i am likely to be on/what sort of side affects i may experience

sorry this is so long and rambly...im in a good mood atm, and cant type fast enough to keep up with my thoughts

thanks for taking the time to sort through this
xoxo
kaye