I haven't been around in some time. Actually i haven't been on RYL in well over a year. I use to come here everyday or more. then one day i tried to sign in and had a panic attack. then everytime after that that i tried to sign in the same thing would happen. not really sure what happen there. Today however here i am i got on and not sure where to post or how to start anything. so I will post here and hopfully I'll be able to conitune to get on and post. I've really been having some issues and need to vent, talk and just be heard but words are not there for me today. i think more then anything i'm proud of myself that i'm able to be back here and not feel like i want to crawl into a hole and hide. I've been hiding for way to long....so sorry about the rambling. maybe i'll write more later..thanks for listening....
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