*Hugs* Im really sorry that your having such a hard time. Do you know what it is thats causing you to harm yourself? Do you have any support? Is there anyone close to you that you could talk to? Is anyone else aware of whats going on? Please dont give up, you will get there, stay strong. Slipping up is all part of recovery but it doesnt make you a failure or mean that your back to square one.
If you dont have support, would you be willing to book an appointment with the doctor to talk about things? I really think that you could do with extra support right now. Have you tried distracting yourself? Here is the big distractions Page
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 Here is the Fun and Distractions Forum
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...splay.php?f=22 Please keep safe.
Take care all the best Ian