Why would you feel bad or guilty about something thats helping you get through the day, and it makes you feel better?
But the thing is, whilst its great that you have a crutch, you need to convince yourself that what youre doing is ultimetely dextrimental to your mental and physical well being.
Perhaps you should work on finding a more constructive way of making yourself feel better..even if you slowly replace the sh with something else.. or even if you just try and cut it down to once every other day.
Do you have someone you can talk to in real life about how youre feeling?
i really hope this doesnt sound as preachy as i think it does. If it does, im really sorry.
|