Thanks for the support guys, I am honestly really sorry I have been so **** supporting you all. I self harmed quite badly after posting that the other night and also took another OD and went to bed. Woke up 3 hours later with cramps and vomitting blood and took myself to a+e, some stitches and a 24hour antidote drip later and I am back home feeling sorry for myself, in pain and with instructions not to drink and appointments for another blood test next week.
My head is still really loud and busy though. Saw a psych liason nurse before I left and she said it says in my notes not to admit me lol. I burst in to tears and just told her I couldn't cope. See my CPN on monday, call the crisis team if necessary over the weekend. I don't know what to do anymore.
My Dad is looking into changing my psych but it seems quite hard to do where I am so I have no idea how long it will take. I just don't have the energy tbh.
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