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After a lot of crying my psychiatrist was changed. Today I went to see my clinical psychologist and burst out crying as I am so tired. He said that my medication needed to be reviewed, especially as I have an underactive thyroid. He wants me to come of the Venlafaxine, so that he can work with me on EMDR and help me to learn to deal with my emotions.

He got me an emergency appointment with the old psychiatrist. When I went to see him he said he was trying to help, but I was "complaining" about how I felt. He used this word several times. He said that he would write to my doctor and ask for my hormones to be checked.

He said that he would see me in 2 weeks, but I don't ever want to see him again. I rang up and they said I will have to wait a lot longer. I hate him too much to see him again.

I feel that I am trying really hard. I took all the medications even though they made me feel worse and I still feel depressed on these ones. I have been on them for a year.

All I want is to be able to wake up and not feel tired. I am hurt and angry that he thinks that I am complaining by wanting that.

I just need to off load as I am struggling to deal with how I feel and I have no idea when I will be able to sort out the blood tests. He didn't even offer me advice on how to come off my tablets.