Ash- hoping things settle for you soon
Lyssie- sorry you're having a tough time just now, hoping you find some level ground and clarity soon to release your anxiety a bit
Chelsea- try not to worry too much. I think sometimes perhaps because i have been aware of things within me for a long period of time that i am, perhaps , more resigned to missing out on some things.... its hard to accept, and scary to experience. Do you have any internal communication at all or are you completely co-separate? If you're able to communicate- despite it not being comfortable a lot of the time, its normally helpful, whether this be an internal or external process- even if you are co concious you might not be comfortable with internal communication. Try to go with your gut feelings as to how things sit with you and others....i've found the key to communication is sticking with gut feeling on how everyone is reacting if there is no 'actual' communication.