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ARK · 20-02-2009, 03:12 PM

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[FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']I just wrote this in the introductions section but I didn't know this forum existed and it seemed the appropriate place for me to be as I'm 25 and guess this felt somewhere I could post this and be me!

Wow, I'm nervous as hell about this!
Previously in my life I battled with self harm for over 8 years and eventually overcame it.
Events in my life recently have meant stress has become a large factor and my coping limits have been stretched to bursting. When I got over this 3 years ago, I didn't ask for any help be it medical or personal and am beginning to worry I masked the effects instead of dealing with the cause.

Because now at 25, just about to become 26....here I am again.
Self harm was never about wanting to end anything for me, it was self preservation at a time I had no other way to cope.
Now that my life has been filled with hurt again, I found myself reaching for an old comfort system, an old friend, simply because I had no clue how else to cope. I haven't told my friends, I'm not sure they'd be able to handle it and a big part of me wants to protect them from something that's eating away at me from the inside, out.
My job is as stressful as it comes and invovles supporting people in 24 hour caring roles. I can't be back here.
I need to be strong for them.

Guess the end line of it all is...I'm scared and here seemed somewhere it's ok to say that.
I also want anyone who reads this to know it's more than ok to say that to me to. I work in a caring, listening role and it's something I'm passionate about so please, if anyone needs to talk - you have my word I am 100% unshockable and I care, a lot.

ARK x[/font]

20-02-2009, 03:12 PM	#1
ARK hiding behind smiles Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: England I am currently:	nervous and really scared [FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']Hi Everyone[/font] [FONT='Verdana','sans-serif'][/font] [FONT='Verdana','sans-serif']I just wrote this in the introductions section but I didn't know this forum existed and it seemed the appropriate place for me to be as I'm 25 and guess this felt somewhere I could post this and be me! Wow, I'm nervous as hell about this! Previously in my life I battled with self harm for over 8 years and eventually overcame it. Events in my life recently have meant stress has become a large factor and my coping limits have been stretched to bursting. When I got over this 3 years ago, I didn't ask for any help be it medical or personal and am beginning to worry I masked the effects instead of dealing with the cause. Because now at 25, just about to become 26....here I am again. Self harm was never about wanting to end anything for me, it was self preservation at a time I had no other way to cope. Now that my life has been filled with hurt again, I found myself reaching for an old comfort system, an old friend, simply because I had no clue how else to cope. I haven't told my friends, I'm not sure they'd be able to handle it and a big part of me wants to protect them from something that's eating away at me from the inside, out. My job is as stressful as it comes and invovles supporting people in 24 hour caring roles. I can't be back here. I need to be strong for them. Guess the end line of it all is...I'm scared and here seemed somewhere it's ok to say that. I also want anyone who reads this to know it's more than ok to say that to me to. I work in a caring, listening role and it's something I'm passionate about so please, if anyone needs to talk - you have my word I am 100% unshockable and I care, a lot. ARK x[/font]