thanks sooooo much for the replies. i'm in no fit mind to respond in a sane way right now so ignore anything that i write.
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i hate myself so much. omg i wish i could cut myself until there was nothing left of me, i wish it was acceptable to commit suicide. would it be so bad if I did? my friends and family would get over it right? im lost in the same patterns and so tired of fighting. i wish there was a way to have a break. im pathetitc and needy and everyone must hate me, right? why do things never make sense?
i forget about myself and feel bad for everyone else. i pick up on the tinyest problem that they have and i want to help them because i care but i don't think of myself in the same way. i feel so bad for saying anything is wrong, i've had so much rejection that I don't believe it's possible for someone to give a ****. and the worst thing is i know non of this is logic or probably true, yet i still can't stop believing it. I'm not important enough for the rest of the world to care, and that's ok, I just need to get my head out my arse. Sorry for completely wasting everyone's time. Stay safe :)
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