[[Pixie]]

I Dont know what the point in the post is, im just a lil confused so i thought yas might have some ideas on whats goin on for me:)

So lately, well about 6 months its been going on. I keep getting like a pounding heartbeat and it feels like i cant breathe, knots in my belly and i start to shake and i get really nervous i just want to cry. But i get it all the time.
And i have like these little hallucination [i dont know if thats the right word] were i just sit in the mirror and talk as if im talking to somebody, but its kinda both side of the conversation. Its werid.
But i only ever talk about stuff i think i need to be, like to do with my SI, but it might be cos i never will talk about it?
And ive always kind of had "imaginary" friends. Im popular, i have friends so i dont know why i make up these ones tbh. Like ill go into college and my mates will be like so what did you do last night, and ill say i did something with one of the people that just arent real :S Its not normal is it?
Feels like im kinda living a lie tbh.
but i believe the lies at the same time.

Dunno im just confused.
and i bet i sound totally crazy now.
sorry if i posted this in the wrong place aswell ..