Life is just... getting to me right now.
I am so... depressed, angry, lonely, etc. I am a ball of ****in' emotions. Every gosh darn negative emotion you can think of... I am experiencing it.
And the really stupid thing is, I have no real reason to feel all this negative ****. I mean, we had to give my dog, Sugar, away today, because my father-in-law keeps having hissy fits about having two dogs in the house and all the dog hair and ****. But we gave her to a friend of the family, so it's not like I will never see her again.
My head is such a mess right now. All I can think about is how much I want to self harm. I don't know if I want to cry or scream.
My teeth are grinding involuntarily,
tears are all built up in my eyes, but they won't flow, my heart feels kinda... fluttery.
I have a migraine right now. I am sick of these. I get them almost every ****in' day. The doctors don't know why.
And the medicine they put me on is not working.
I have a follow-up appointment, but it's not until the 20th!!! And something keeps tellimg me "You need to cancel that appointment.
You have no insurance and you can't afford to pay them."
Like two months ago I went to the emergency room with really really ****ing bad stomach pains, and they gave me pain meds and sent me to a gynecologist. He thought I might have an infection in my uterus, so he gave me antibiotics. Well I am still in a world of pain.
It's like there is nothing to do to get away from the pain (both physical and emotional).
