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I need some help
I need some help.
I need help.
I may need a lot of help.
It's a thing and I wish I could kill myself, but I said I would wait until the next winter at the first snowfall. That way no one will know before it's time. What could they do? Lock me up every time the weather looks bad and it's cold?
I just... I'm tired and I'm not letting it on to anyone about it, but it's hard. I need people to let go of me. I need to finish things. If I let go of people, then no one will know. Make sure I'm payed up to the end of the month or whatever. I haven't hurt myself in a long time, but I don't care anymore about it. I wish to hurt myself. I want the pain, I deserve the pain. I deserve the hurt. I want the control.
I don't know what to say.
Well, I do, but it's not socially acceptable that I express my pain. It's not acceptable that I tell someone how I feel or that I express my desire for privacy. I'm not socially acceptable.
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