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Lyssie · 04-02-2009, 09:40 PM

*TRIGGER*: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE CAREFUL!

*embarassed* Does anyone else get this since they were SA??
As well as feeling queasy and like I'm about to vomit when I picture his name in my head... I get pains... down there... sorry if this is tmi, which it probably is but I need to tell someone and I'm not seeing my CPN till the 20th after I've been to Scotland but... And also 'down there' gets really sensitive whenever I think about the SA! Even though at the time he did it too hard and it really hurt. Then when I got home I scrubbed untill it was bleeding... Oh dude, my head is ****'d up! I feel so disturbed and WRONG! I want to SI down there too... *hangs head in shame*!

I'm sorry!

04-02-2009, 09:40 PM	#1
Lyssie Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Guildford I am currently:	Thoughs making me physically sick! graphic TRIGGER: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE CAREFUL! embarassed Does anyone else get this since they were SA?? As well as feeling queasy and like I'm about to vomit when I picture his name in my head... I get pains... down there... sorry if this is tmi, which it probably is but I need to tell someone and I'm not seeing my CPN till the 20th after I've been to Scotland but... And also 'down there' gets really sensitive whenever I think about the SA! Even though at the time he did it too hard and it really hurt. Then when I got home I scrubbed untill it was bleeding... Oh dude, my head is ***'d up! I feel so disturbed and WRONG! I want to SI down there too... hangs head in shame! I'm sorry!*
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