Hey hun
I can sort of relate to how you are feeling. I haven't worked for a year and feel very bad about that. I have also been told that I may not ever be reliable enough to work again. And others have told me that I don't have the will to be reliable which really hurts and is a major factor in my self harm/self injury issues because my self esteem is virtually non existant. I would love to be able to work again and I have even just enrolled in a course but it guts me that I'm at home while my wife is working, earning money, making friends and making a future for herself. I feel that deep down there is only emptiness and nothingness.
I wish I could come up with better advise but I'm not really feeling any better than you are.
Please know that I am thinking of you and you are a wonderful, beautiful person in my opinion.
Nathan xo
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