Kat. I know what you mean.
Chris' little one - hello. :) It's ok to talk here.
Hi lostboys.
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I think I'm at last coming out of Katrina-state.
It's been hard.
Someone has said they like her attitude and fireyness. But. That's not all she is. She can be so destructive and violent. Not a good thing. She has skewed ideas of protection dating back to very primitive fight-flight.
And.. Little Girl won't ever grow up. That's how trauma is. She's frozen there because of what happened. I just have to live around her and try my best not to think I am her. Which is harder than it sounds. Because she needed love and understanding so much.
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