another day.. another stitch ... they are wanting to hold me there ...i promised not to do it tonight. i will see my dr everyday if i have to (her words) until i see the psych. I looked the guy up online...lots of praise for him, but he is old...worried about the difference..worried about him wanting me to explain why i must keep a secret. one person says he over medicates...i feel down on the meds i am on now. going on two weeks. this brings me back to 16. i want to die. gone to the point i have calculated a dose for a get out of life card... but i cant...i am too important to my family, my kids. that right now is the only thing keeping me alive. i love my husband. i love my kids. i stay for them.
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