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turning 18..
turning 18 should be a great time for anyone... for me,, it wasnt go great!
honestly i didnt think i'd even make it this far,, but i obviously have..
i havent self harmed in 2 weeks or so now but after turning 18 its all i can think about...
not "yes finally i can go out and not have to worry about ID,, or not gettin served".. its more like..
"yes i can finally go out and buy the razor blades i want!!"... due to an age restriction of 18..
i really dont wonna have to tell my parents because all the trust ive gained since being released from hospital will deminish,,
but at the same time im scared ima sink back into the black hole self harm seems to create..
i dont know what to do.. plus i wont be seeing my psychologist for a while so i wont have a chance to speak to anyone..
even if i were to see her idk if i'd say anything because last time i did i ended up into psych unit =|.. HELP!
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