[Konstantine]

I don't really know how to explain this, but i'll try my best.
Lately there has been a storyline on TV (eastenders) which has really triggered me. When it got to it's worst point (someone having a mental breakdown, thinking of suicide), it really triggered me. I didn't like the feeling when I thought about the character who was having a breakdown, it was really triggering, in a negative way - I felt like I was that character, i've felt like what happened to her. However, when I was watching how people were reacting "have you cut?" and all the caring, I sort of felt drawn in and in a strange way, I enjoyed watching it and got some pleasure out of it :s I don't understand why.... is this normal?