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momma_kitty · 19-01-2009, 01:04 PM

I don't get piercings to hurt myself, I get them because I enjoy themand I like seeing the reaction I get from them in public. They are fun.

I've been so self distructive lately. Tonight I had sex with my friend who has a girlfriend.................. I can't believe I did that. I mean, it felt good because we spooned and guys usually don't spoon with me or whatever, but still. I didn't even want to have sex with him, but I did. What's wrong with me?

I was going to drink again tonight, but then I stopped and wondered what the heck I was doing. I'm so glad I didn't. I'm not going to get into that scene.

I feel good about my adoption decision because I know my son is going to get everything I never would have been able to provide him. I find peace that I put him above myself. It hust hurts so bad and it's still so fresh.

19-01-2009, 01:04 PM	#9
momma_kitty Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Texas I am currently:	I don't get piercings to hurt myself, I get them because I enjoy themand I like seeing the reaction I get from them in public. They are fun. I've been so self distructive lately. Tonight I had sex with my friend who has a girlfriend.................. I can't believe I did that. I mean, it felt good because we spooned and guys usually don't spoon with me or whatever, but still. I didn't even want to have sex with him, but I did. What's wrong with me? I was going to drink again tonight, but then I stopped and wondered what the heck I was doing. I'm so glad I didn't. I'm not going to get into that scene. I feel good about my adoption decision because I know my son is going to get everything I never would have been able to provide him. I find peace that I put him above myself. It hust hurts so bad and it's still so fresh.