Actually i dont really mind having to take the meds, well sometimes i go thru that 'why' and 'i hate them' period but if im on the right meds then i dont mind, it just is you know?
Well, i managed to call my psych to see about med refills and he said i have to see him first, so i see him on monday *gulp*. But i asked for just a 1/2 hour appt, not an hour. I think i can manage that. I may give him the letter/post but i dont know. I just hate how the AP's add so much weight. i just got out of a year + of anorexia, ending it out with a broken shoulder because i was so thin FFS so i cant handle weight gain. i gained off the last one he tried me on (seroquel) and havent managed to lose it yet. How much harder and longer it is doing it the 'right ' way! I just want to stop eating again for a few months but i'm trying not to go down that road again, i was lucky to get out of it so easily. (dea, i'm thinking of you here...i miss you girl! ALOT! and i worry about you! Gonna PM)
So i will update after i see him. One good thing, he agrees that i am not just BPD, which i know im not and HE knows im not, which the last doc is trying to ram down my throat and make me fit the DX of it. It's a situation of , 'dont confuse me with the facts, my mind is made up'. Asshole!
So, thanks again. I muchly appreciate the support :o)
Thinking of you all
romp
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