hey guys i used to be a youth leader at my church but they asked me to step down now cause of my depression (they don't really know about my self harming) i was really hurt cause this has happened before and when i went into leadership i made sure the pastor knew about it but it looks like my past has come back to haunt me. kind of feels like they only want perfect people there but how does that work. surely if i understand and have experienced depression and urges to self harm and adddiction and that kind stuff i can better understand the youth. i get on really well with them and now some of them are upset cause i've left again and the church won't say they asked me to step down i have to say it's because of personal reasons. what do you guys think. i'm just really not experiencing god's family and love at the moment and it's affecting my relationship with him. not that i'm blaming them but i'm just really struggling
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