Firstly I want to say thank you to everyone and anyone who takes the time to either read or reply (or both) to what I'm writing. I presently feel a little isolated and perhaps ostracised by and from those close to me at the present time, and it really means a lot to me that I have somewhere I can use to release these emotions. I'm sorry if I don't always respond to your replies, but I have been reading them.
I've been feeling a little more emotional recently ... possibly related to my lack of medication and/or sleep, or perhaps because I have been feeling like I'm not getting anywhere in my life at present and keep wanting to hurt myself in various ways and to various extents no matter what I try and do.
I'm hypomanic at the moment. A really weird place for me to be when I've been so down recently. I laugh, I smile, I crack jokes that others can't understand ... But, I also overreact to things that would normally not be an issue. My brain (or at least the part of it that is rational and logical) isn't always switching itself on properly. Like last night I literally pegged a couple of cushions at someone because they wouldn't let me watch a particular tv show. That's just not like me. I did manage to catch myself before throwing either a glass or a DVD though. It was kind of freaky.
Hopefully it has stopped raining now. I won't hold my breath though. I am so sick of bailing water out. It was pretty much a constant job yesterday and gave me a blister on my non-dominant hand and a latex burn on my dominant hand. Mind you, I wouldn't have gotten the second one if I wasn't allergic to latex LOL.
I find out soon whether one of my housemates is working today. He may not be if the weather is as extreme as it was yesterday.
I want to start singing weird songs really loud. La la la!!
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