specia consideration is exactly what it says - a way of seeing past the grades to see your potential, which isn't reflected in your grades because of special circumstances. If your Dad nearly died of course it would affect your grades, so they were right to give you a place.
And that's pretty stressful in itself, let alone starting Uni and probably moving away from home. So please don't put yourself down for being stressed, anyone would be in those circumstances.
I don't think asking for help would give you a bad reputation, actually probably more a sign of maturity & responsibility. And that's why Unis have tutors, counselling services etc.
But, at the end of it all, you're unhappy. And you deserve better - please believe that and do what you need to in order to feel better, which right now might be to get some support. Then you have the chance to enjoy your time at Uni instead of just surviving it, and then you can leave behind the crap and take the good stuff with you when you leave.
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