i do have to say this is a very interesting point.
when i was young i used to psychically attack myself when i was upset. i remember once deliberately slamming my arm in a door. i also used to put things between my teeth to deliberately make my gums bleed and if there was a candle near and i was upset i would grab the hot wax to burn myself with. i also burnt myself deliberately in the shower. i used to turn the water up as hot as it would go and then stand under it for a minimum of 2 minutes. i thought that i was a bad girl and i was a good girl if i was doing this. i did it to the extent that my back blistered and i was screaming with agony. i also used to bite myself if i was in a test and didnt know the answer because i thought i was stupid. i was actually removed from my year 2 sats exam because i was biting my arms so badly they were bleeding and i was crying. i also used to rip clumps of my hair out when i was very young and i now have an obsession with plucking hair.
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