Firstly I want to thank you all for replying, I most definitely don’t deserve it. Thank you <3
I’ll try what you’ve suggested about doing nice things before bed and try to plan to do something small, even if it is by myself that will make waking up a little easier.
I do enjoy training when I’m there, and I get a lot out of it, I push myself and it’s a productive sort of pain. I like coming out hurting because I know I’ve done something right. It’s just the thought of going and having to pretend that everything is ok and that I’m ok, which I know I don’t have to do, but I feel like I have to.
I can’t really do anything about seeing anyone while I’m at home anyway. But I will think about doing something about it when I go back to uni. I really don’t know if I can go through with it but it wouldn’t hurt to look into it anyway right?
Thank you guys x
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