I can only repeat what the above posters have said! First of all, try to relax before going to bed, there have been some excellent suggestions concerning methods to help you calm down. It's only understandable that things get worse for you before and after sleeping, as you don't have anything to keep your mind busy and away from those thoughts that drain you so much.
I understand that you're scared of letting people in, but that doesn't mean you have to shut yourself off completely. The next time someone asks you to go out just go for it! It's usually much better than you expect it to be and you don't even have to talk about anything personal. You don't have to let anyone in until you're ready, but at least spending some time with them and enjoying yourself will help you. Maybe this way at night you'd have something else to think about, at least for a little bit.
Whatever haunts you at night must be some deep issues that you can't resolve on your own. You might find it difficult to trust another counselor, so you could try to go through confidentiality and your past experience the first time you talk to someone new and then just take it as slow as you need to.
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