I know in years I am only 18 well almost..
And it sounds ridiculous but it feels so much longer
because I am tired of being hurt by everyone..and what feels worse is when I get my hopes up and think theres actually a chance of things being ok and they it all goes away like that. First lou died..then the baby..
and all the other little things in between.
I am tired of being scared..I am tired of spending most the day having panic attacks and urgh...I can't even say..
I am tired of having to pretend everythings ok.
If only hadn't been so stupid and told her about all those things then maybe it would be different.
He was right this is what happens when I break the rules
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