OD urges are back. My means of Suicide is back in my mind. How far does this go? How far before you reach the point where things cant change? I think I'm there now, this won't get better. But how do I find the courage to follow through my plans? I don't know what I need, what I want, I know nothing anymore.
Emma, I'm sorry that the OD urges/your means of suicide are back and are in your mind. I think things could get better for you Emma. Maybe yes you are getting closer and closer.....but look at how strong you have been in this past year of knowing you...and how strong you can be even through your tough times. Remember you do have people who I know you want to stay around for, think them maybe as a distraction? But don't think I'm saying this emotionally blackmail you into doing/not doing something. Because I'm trying to be supportive but writing in a way that knows you're not threatening as such..