Wow - that sounds really difficult, I'm so sorry you're having to put up with that in your home.
I found that my family was the trigger for my harming, too. Ultimately when it's as something as core as your family, there is a lot of work needed to change the dynamics of what is causing you to hurt yourself [which is not only their behaviour, but also your interpretation and behaviours].
Have you ever tried using anything else to express yourself? If you can't do it with words to them, can you do it online, or to a friend? Instead of taking it out on yourself - which you don't deserve- why not have a go at other means of expression.
Also, if you're seeing a counsellor/doctor/etc I really suggest you mention it to them, see what they can do.
Be strong - because you won't be living under their rook forever, life will change & no doubt you'll find it for the better. You can get through this
xxxxx
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