Rusty:
yeah, me too. :( more than actually missing the person who was my biological father, i miss the idea of having a father. and while God is a "father to the orphan and husband to the widow"...we have flesh-and-blood fathers for a reason, too. when i start really hurting over it, i'm always reminded of the tribe of Levi, from the old testament.
Genesis 49: 5-7: "Simeon and Levi are brethren; instruments of cruelty are in their habitations. O my soul, come not thou into their secret; unto their assembly, mine honour, be not thou united: for in their anger they slew a man, and in their self-will they digged down a wall. Cursed be their anger, for it was fierce; and their wrath, for it was cruel; I will divide them in Jacob, and scatter them in Israel." As punishment for murder they were denied the portion of land that was their inheritance right. But later, when Moses went up the mountain to get the 10 commandments, they were loyal to God instead of worshipping the golden calf like the other tribes. After this event, they went from being the most dishonored tribe to the most honored--they still had no inheritence of land, but God told them "I am your portion (inheritance)" which is a phrase still tossed about a bit today though most people don't know what it means. Anyway...God's grace turned their loss into a blessing, and he can do the same for us. Though our biological fathers are out of the picture, God promises in the bible that he's a father to the fatherless--not that he isn't still a father to those with one, but it's a bit like the tribe of Levi in that he'll take special care of us if we'll let him.
Salanna: good for you! <3 that's wondeful :)
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