I tend to agree that with institutionalization comes this level of comfort in showing/sharing SI. At one time, this was the very definition of my life. I lived at a long-term residential facility for people with *problems*. Now, I am trying to live a relatively normal and integrated life where SI is seen as freakish. Sometimes I miss the walls of the institution, be it hospital or residential - but going back to that would simply be an escape and I must push on in the real world. But still.... I have weird fantasies about hurting myself in ways that would put me back in the world of hospitals, facilities, etc. I wish they would just go. Leave me be so I can LIVE.
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