We're really scared about our session today. We told T to push Ash aboutm the boys from the labrynth.... We know she will stop if we say need to, or if she suspects its too much for us, but we're scared of doing it anyway.
We've had A LOT of anxiety about Ash's mum, trying to manage her. Though we had (Ash mostly but with some co-consciousness) coffee with her about 20mins ago. We are in the coffee shop across the road from T, having another coffee, and will then have another again when Ash's girlfriend gets here. We are going to be buzzZING.
Ash is getting leak-through mania due to stress.... We think that could be Jesse, but not sure just now.
We got a card from the Dad for our birthday. We switched crazily after opening it. $100 too.... But we were so torn up. So sad, we miss him, NO WE DONT so angry whyd he hafta hert us, n he leev? Why did he have to have goodc and bad qualities? Why did he have to r*pe us? he didnt!! he didnt! He damn well ****ing did.
Yeah chaos about that, and another card for christmas coming up. Plus Christmas time anniversaries... Ugh..... We are going to ask T for some extra PRNs.... (as needed tranquilisers) we're SURE we are going to need them.
Kat(rica)
Why is it uncomfortable? Being co-conscious? We find it can make things easier sometimes, but it really does depend on the alter.
Chris,
That sucks about the assesment, but CBT can be really helpful, particularly if your parts/alters work on it with you.
How did they determine this? People with DID rarely trust easily, and then may take longer to open up about their parts/multiplicity for quite a while. Makes it easier when you have a community like this though. (((safe hugs you all))))
Glad your friend made you feel better.... Are they going to give you individual psychotherapy also? I dont know how the system works over there....
Invalidation hurts so much for us. We're sure with most people who have DID.... Having been abused, and not able to tell anyone about the hurt, cause of threats, fear of punishment, programming or just fear of not bing believed.... And then to reach out for help and be shut down.
But really, if you get treated, and you can incorporate your parts into the treatment they provide, it may not make a huge difference in practise. Of course emotionally is compltely different.
We have our T appointment in les than half an hour.... *yawn* oh god, we've already had 2 double shot coffees and we are yawning :O:O:O
Take care everyone
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