I don't agree that academia is all you have to show in life. I used to say the same....I was bright and if I didn't do well academically then I was nothing more. Sometimes I still believe this, but gradually I have realised there is more to me than this. I think there is more to you too. Try and give yourself a break. University is hard enough for people who do not have to deal every day with what we deal with. Struggling does not make you weak or a lesser person. If you are struggling for the assignment then ask for an extension. Do you see anyone other than a counsellor? It sounds like maybe you could do with some help to change your thought patters to help you break the negative chain of thoughts you mentioned?
*hugs* take care
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