[IceBerg]

I sorry, i couldn't read all of that, im not very good at reading long things, its too hard, but what for i read of it, *hugs*
Im sorry you are getting a hard time off your parents, but death is not better.
Think about how your mum + dad will feel, if not from loosing a child who im sure they love, but in having to tell your sibling(s) that their sister died.
Think how everyone will feel.
Who tells your friends you are dead?

And in regards to the last bit, tell your counseller, she can help.. :)
If you tell the truth, you are more likely to make a breakthrough, then you might be able to get help.
Oh, just said that twice.
nevermind.

*hugs*
Alice
xxx