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nikki2291 · 17-12-2008, 11:02 AM

Thank-you guys.
By the way just so you know, the guy who ignored my deep cut last night and my BF are different people (I know I wasn't clear on that in my post...lol).
I can understand my BF being scared of me going to deep, but he has known me since I started cutting. He does not SI but he did try it once a few days ago to see what it was like, it shocked me to no ends that he would do something like that, although I know it was to try and help me but still...
I am not sure if that is an empty threat or not. He knows me to well to think that it would motivate me though. I really don't want to find out if it is an empty threat or not, but I fear that that is what is going to happen.
I will have to be alone today as he has got to work and I am so scared to be alone because that is when the deep ones happen. ...
He can't stay home and I don't want to ask a friend of mine to stay with me because I am not comfortable talking about the SI with him...
I'm not sure what to do.
By the way, I posted a thread in the first aid forum that I really need an answer to, I don't want to post it here because it's not where it belongs.

~Nikki~

17-12-2008, 11:02 AM	#9
nikki2291 ~~Misunderstood~~ Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: NS, Canada I am currently:	Thank-you guys. By the way just so you know, the guy who ignored my deep cut last night and my BF are different people (I know I wasn't clear on that in my post...lol). I can understand my BF being scared of me going to deep, but he has known me since I started cutting. He does not SI but he did try it once a few days ago to see what it was like, it shocked me to no ends that he would do something like that, although I know it was to try and help me but still... I am not sure if that is an empty threat or not. He knows me to well to think that it would motivate me though. I really don't want to find out if it is an empty threat or not, but I fear that that is what is going to happen. I will have to be alone today as he has got to work and I am so scared to be alone because that is when the deep ones happen. ... He can't stay home and I don't want to ask a friend of mine to stay with me because I am not comfortable talking about the SI with him... I'm not sure what to do. By the way, I posted a thread in the first aid forum that I really need an answer to, I don't want to post it here because it's not where it belongs. ~Nikki~
	"Give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference" "Don't judge me by the scars on my arms, instead help me to throw away the blade"