Thank you caz. I just got back from my appt. I did tell him - i was really embarrased though. I'm not really sure what he thought. I said that I was being stupid, but he didn't say I was stupid but he didn't say I wasn't either
so really don't know. I did tell him though, I really didn't want to in some ways because I don't want anyone to know because I don't want to be made to eat, but at the same time i want help before this develops into a full blown ED.
We didn't really discuss my behaviours - we never really do, even with my SH we don't really discuss it - because i think he thinks it's more important to talk about the reasons behind it - but we didn't really have enough time to get into it.
I'm not seeing him again now till 6th Jan cuz of the xmas break. I'm terrified of xmas as i said before - but maybe it will be good if i can relax and spend time with my family and friends who i miss very much and possibly i could rekindle my love of food - as i did love food and was very fond of cooking before. At the same time this really scares me becuase not eating is helping me cope and is a good distraction from all the other crap that's going on in my head right now.