Thanks guys. Managed to speak to a couple of people at the crisis team who were actually of use and listened. They kept in touch until my night meds kicked in.
Today? Well, I feel so much better. I had a release somehow and it was without taking an OD or getting blind drunk (although did cut a little
). I think it was by talking before it got to the point when I couldn't. Do you find when you get to that crisis point and then past it, something happens to ease things? No doubt it will build up to that point again but right now just thankful that you were all there last night.