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over the last 3 months i have getting counselling. but it wasnt until the late 5 weeks when i admitted i had be sexually abused as a young teenager. so the last few weeks have been really difficult. talking about what happened makes it so much more 'real' if you know what i mean? anyway over the last two weeks i have been having nightmares and flashbacks of the some 'experience' over and over again. when i experience these i can hear, see, smell, feel and even taste the same things i did when it happened. this is ruining my life i cant sleep, eat or even function. i just want this memory to leave me alone!! its like reliving it over and over again. i dont want this!! i never wanted anything that happened!!! i just want all these feelings to stop. i cant see a way out!! please i just want to be left alone so i can one day dissappear!!!